I was recently told by someone very close to me that I complain too much. And that person was right. I have a healthy child, a happy marriage, food on my table, and a roof over my head. No one close to me is sick, my parents are still married, and I have a great relationship (most of the time) with my siblings. My husband and I are about to start the process of buying a house, and while I am really tired of life in an apartment, I am hopeful that having lived in apartments for SO LONG will help us make the right decision when we buy a house, and not buy something that is completely wrong for us. I have a job, and while my job makes me crazy A LOT, it is more of a job than a lot of people have in this economy, and I should be grateful for it. It wasn't that long ago that I was unemployed and didn't think that anyone was ever going to hire me, despite having an education. Speaking of education, I also have a husband who is working 50+ hours a week, just completed his bachelor's degree, and will start his master's in October. Sure, he's doing it for himself, because it's something that he wants, but it will ultimately benefit all of us. As an added bonus, if I still have the itch to get my master's when he's done with his, he is totally supportive of taking on that debt too.
SO yes, I am blessed. Incredibly so. And I have been taking it for granted in a big way lately. Now, I've never been a Pollyanna. I simply do not see the world through rose colored glasses. And I really don't want to. If I were, the "funny (read: sarcastic)" part of me would be gone. And I don't think that seeing the glass as half full all of the time is healthy. Because sometimes it isn't. BUT I'm seeing it as more than half empty lately, and that's bad too. I don't want my kids to grow up thinking its ok to whine all the time. Or to always think that someone is out to get them (which I don't, I swear, but I'm headed that direction). So I'm praying on it. Every time I have a bitter, negative, "my life sucks" thought, I'm praying on it. And I feel better. A lot better. Physically and emotionally. Spiritually, I'm talking to God more, I'm reading the Bible more, and THAT helps most of all.
I also realize that what started out as a blog to share my thoughts, maybe write a little, and keep my friends and family updated on our life has become an outlet to complain. And not all that interesting. So much so that I've been writing less and less on it, because truth be told, it's not even that interesting to me, and more than a little bit embarrassing to go back and read later. So this is the last post to complain (although in this case, I think I'm coming clean). And if anyone can suggest a good writing "group" to give me topics, I'll be happy to take suggestions. Then maybe I can hone my writing skills instead of complaining all the time. In the meantime, I'm going to try to get help from above with my attitude about life down here, instead of boring my friends with it.